Today was a rough OCD day because I was actually out in the world. I didn’t have my safety net, my husband, and I was with a bunch of people who didn’t know about the OCD and I was faced with the normal world. It was hard. I did a semester study program back in 2001 and the current students were here for their semester’s trip. So, it was an opportunity for me to see my old professors and tag along to a couple of their meetings.
Well, I didn’t know tagging along meant having 3 people in my car with me. I didn’t know it would mean opening doors and not feeling like I could hand sanitize. I didn’t know that one girl would leave her phone in my car and of course ask for my keys so she could go get it. I never hand my keys over. And then I had to just put them in my purse!
I ended up having a pretty good day. I did a really good job of just pushing the OCD aside and saying I’d deal with it later. But dealing with it later sucks. It meant a shower. It meant my husband spraying down the car and cleaning stuff for me. It will mean cleaning all the stuff in my purse off, and of course spraying my purse with Febreeze Anti-Microbial, but that’s pretty standard when I take my purse out in public. The shower is fairly normal too after an intense time out. But the car and the inside of the purse and the keys and everything…well, it was just a big day for OCDumb.
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ReplyDeleteBut really - it wasn't 'just a big day for OCDumb' - it was a big day for Reannon, too. Anytime you respond in a non-OCD manner to the world is helping break down the lies of the OCD, even if you do give in later.